my shoes at the end of this experience
He looked at me and said “You don’t believe in stagnation, so what are you doing?“
(In context, he meant my website and my business – he had no idea Facets is my heart space and how very right he was – all of it buried under protective layers of armor.)
I breathed into the meaning of his words, releasing my frustration (who are *you* to question anything about me?)…because he was right.
I will remember the tone of his voice and the way my heart felt as I heard those words (barriers shattered) for a very long time.
It is one thing to truly listen, quite another to turn those words inward and allow them to inspire.
I slept on it.
this morning’s sunrise over the dunes
When I am manifesting, I shine Light on my shadows, naturally amplifying joy and dissolving fear.
I cleared my schedule to make time to see the sunrise. I stood there, patiently waiting as sun slowly began to illuminate World…eventually evolving to this magnificent display.
(Isn’t that kind of how hope grows…you feel a little ray of sunshine deep within; you cultivate it, making room for it to grow…and voila! your entire being is full of sunshine…)
I decided to walk a bit.
We have only lived here three months, so this stretch of beach is new to me. I decided to challenge myself to see if I could walk to the end of the stretch (which is 2.3 miles – doable) – something I had wanted to do since we moved.
While walking I was, of course, processing and being and basking in the sunshine…talking to Universe/God/Source…
I am usually barefoot (everywhere) but today I had my running shoes on; my thinking was to protect my feet from the elements (odd for me, but true, here).
(I think Ocean was wondering why I, who pretty much skinny dips, was wearing a protective layer and sent a few waves to cover my feet *grin*.)
One of the things on my mind was my manifesting money miracles class that is currently in session.
The students are sharing their money manifesting stories and I know the process works, I use it often and share many of those stories here, but it had stalled for me.
Because my practice of presence is energy based, I also know that when I am expecting something external and it is not showing up, there is an internal block. While I am doing the work to understand and remove that block, external waits patiently for that space to be cleared. So, the process is working, even if I can’t physically see results.
Basically, as I was walking, I was asking for clear affirmation / signs….show me I am on the right path…in general, in life and with Facets….
sand dollars from this morning
Almost immediately, I saw a sand dollar peeking up from the sand.
(This is big for me, because normally my daughter finds them for me….rarely do I find them myself!).
I smiled inside, then asked for “more, please” – a technique we use in the money class.
I really didn’t think I would find more. However, I found three more “just like that”.
I could look at this literally as in *dollars in new spaces* (get it?). I could look at this energetically as in:
The spiritual meaning of the sand dollar is that the Lord is watching over us and cares beyond what we can comprehend. It is seen as holding the truth of life and that there is hope and love for us and others. Sand dollars are like the Lord’s eyes in the sea. from Ask.com
My mind kicked in with the thought if I complete this walk, I will then have to walk back…and how I really don’t have the time/energy/resources…
(The whole ‘new space/fear enters/not enough thing’ – applies to moving out of stagnation as well.)
My heart said, we are walking.
So, I walked. Past some of our favorite parks…all of the way to the end of the stretch, which is this little cove where I used to anchor the boat when we lived on it and picnic and swim.
(Brought me right back to my most powerful, pre-barrier, phase – got that lesson, too! Remember what is possible, Joy, because you lived it!)
We know I love to play with my shadow (physically and energetically)…here is my shadow in the cove…
On the way back, I made each step a gratitude step. I covered World with all of the good energy overflowing from my heart!
I said, on a whim, it sure would be nice to find a heart stone. (Because my friend Tanya, who is also a student in my I Believe in Magic class, sees hearts everywhere and she would find a heart-stone on this beach, so I wanted the experience, too.)
I really didn’t think it possible, it was kind of a show me what you got, Universe…thing….
I do, very much Believe in Magic.
I don’t always share my stories, because they feel sacred to me and it feels incredibly vulnerable to share “how I choose to live”.
But, if I don’t share…you might not know how presence and possibility truly work in daily life...
So, here is one example…
Thank you for receiving it!
I would love to know, what speaks directly to your heart from this experience…what do you feel as you read it and what do you think about the way it unfolded? And, what magic are you open to creating? When you share, you affirm and inspire!
Much peace and abundant love,
Pre-registration (with a 20% discount) for I Believe in Magic: 30-day Photo Journey is open through September 30, 2013. I do hope you choose to play with us – it’s a lot of fun!
Tanya is now known Heartlady on Facebook.
My “takeaway”: you gotta remove the armor…and the moment you do…your entire world opens up…just like that! And, maybe it will get messy, but shoot, it will be tons of fun…if you allow it to be!