Theme for Week Two: Reconnecting With Your Core

1.  Goddess Leonie Dawson asks:“Have you found your soul’s compass yet?  What would you like to call into your life?  If the 80-year-old you wrote you a letter, what would she say?  And in what ways are you a goddess?”

My Soul is Calibrated to Flow

by Joy

I have the gift of ‘sight’; perhaps a more mainstream label would be clarity.  I was born “knowing” who I am and what my purpose is.  Some might read that and think how refreshing (and it is!).  However…

Just because I know with certainty who I am and what my purpose is, doesn’t mean that I have always accepted it, or lived it, or even known what to do with that knowledge.  I am love and peace and truth and my purpose is to be (and in the “act of being” to share) that love and peace and truth.  Sounds simple, but I resisted it most of my life.  I resisted my gift of clarity and I resisted my truth, because it set me apart from mainstream, it set me apart from those I love–for inevitably, people are drawn to love, peace, and truth, yet are not always able to receive it.  So, in essence, people were drawn to me, but not always able to receive me.  Why?  Because I haven’t always been able to receive my self.

I wonder, how many of us feel a lack of peace in our lives and look externally to fill it, claim it, own it; yet, it is our inner journey that allows the experience of peace–in learning to love and accept self that we find it and live it.

About six years ago, I stepped out of the life I had “known”, into this life of being me.  Quite simply, what I find is that when I live in alignment, I enjoy peace; when I share from this center of peace, I am sharing “golden”.  My focus then is to live in alignment from this center of peace; which means that my choices might look unconventional, but my soul’s compass is calibrated to Flow and what I Feel each moment is gratitude. I often say (because I truly Feel) that gratitude and love are my navigational tools into a lovely harbor of peace.

A Letter From my 80 Year Old Self (by the way, in life I speak to myself in this tone, in these words, daily…it is a beautiful exercise in love!)

Dearest One,

Thank you for being you.  I *love* your essence.  I appreciate you.

Do you know what I love best about you?  Your smile.  That smile has been on your face from day one, lighting your space, sparking the smiles around you.  Such a beautiful smile.  Thank you for sharing it.

And your eyes. Those gorgeous hazel eyes, that have captivated each person who looks into them.  Windows to your soul.  Thank you for opening them as you do, and for allowing others to peer so intently into them, and for answering questions transparently as they tried to figure out why they sparkled so.  Thank you for sharing your vision so openly, so freely and for allowing that vision to guide your choices.

Love and gratitude.  Your smile and your eyes are lit by love and gratitude.  Thank you for having the courage to open your heart daily, through doubt and fear and external everything, to experience that love and gratitude.

Darling one, I don’t think you felt courageous; people would use that word to describe you and you would slough it off as you embarked upon your next adventure.  Ah, that smile and those eyes have certainly led to many adventures.  You have lived quite an amazing life: from pushing past your self-imposed limits, to loving fully to the depths of your being, to experiencing stillness so profound it brought tears to your eyes.  You opened your self up to Feel to a depth and range that allowed for exquisite, elegant, excellent.  Thank you for allowing those Feelings.  So incredibly beautiful.

I know there were times you didn’t Feel that beauty.  I am so glad that you opened through that because in doing so, you allowed your self to be that beauty, and when you share from this place, you reflect to others that which is beauty filled.  Do you doubt that, still?  Ah, you are absolutely beautiful.  I don’t know why you cannot see that (I know you do not “like labels”, but labels are what we have, love)–as you spend hours in nature, in the hills and the ocean and the beach that you love so–you are all that you see, all that your heart holds dear, that is you reflecting to you.  You are the vastness of the sky, and the power and grace of the ocean, and the majesty of the hills.

I know that your countless mornings breathing in the sunrise, and evenings basking in the sunset, and nights sleeping in the moonbeams nourished your being and allowed you to become that Light.  Thank you for taking the time to breathe and bask and sleep in the light filled spaces.

Thank you for honoring each person’s individual paths, as you honored your own.  There were times when you wanted to hold someone so close–your children, lovers–but you released that connection so that they might experience as they were meant to.  In releasing, you were all able to create with freedom and joy and learned so much from each other.  You walked many steps together, each step buoyant and light and refreshing.  Such an honor to walk with loved ones, thank you for allowing that experience.

You won’t always have the “answers”.  You won’t always know “how”.  This may frustrate you at times, even temporarily slow you down, but you will innovatively create through these spaces.  You call yourself a “feeler” but love you are a creator, an inventor…of this moment and all of your moments.  And the life you have created is a wonderful one.  Thank you for creating this life.

You already know this deep within.  It all works as it is meant to.

I love you,

80-year-old me.

Thank you.

If you would like to read the previous week’s essay, please click this link: There is Only Now.

 

Comments on: "Theme for Week Two: Reconnecting With Your Core" (6)

  1. I have to say thank you for honouring each person personal path. Now I am always facing this problem of just accepting what other is doing. Sometimes I’m not sure if I’m doing it right or wrong by criticizing on the way they live. (the mainstream way) They are unhappy but they take it as a neccessity of life. I am an Asian, it is harder for us to work towards another path as we couldn’t simply forsake the life of luxuries. I am learning to let go of the decisions of other people, of letting them follow the way that is set in stone. I don’t know, sometimes I am really confusedabout what I should be doing.

    • Hi wing,
      Thank you for sharing so openly. In my life, I have found that when I insist upon a certain “way” for my self or with connecting with another, I experience struggle and frustration. I commit not to a certain path, but to the concept of the path. For instance, in this site, I am committed to my heart message of peace. I am not “bound” to a certain writing style, or format, or even to the technical “mainstream” way of creating this site. People may look in and have an opinion (all sites do this, or you should do that), but my commitment is not to “how’ it is done, my commitment is in the doing.
      In the same way, when I relate with another, my commitment is to the joy and ease of relating. If I insist upon expectations or even a certain “way”, I am limiting the potential of this connection, and also creating struggle. There is amazing freedom in honoring our own heart path as well the individual heart paths of those around us, and within that freedom is found the closest connection.

      • I love this phrase, “amazing freedom in honoring our own heart path as well the individual heart paths of those around us, and within that freedom is found the closest connection.” very empowering. For me, I have to always take conscious effort to achieve that. It will be hard for me but I think it will be worth it! Thanks for the advice((:

        • Hi wing,
          Thank you for your willingness to explore a “new concept”. I love that! Freedom is something that may be extremely empowering when we allow it to be; it is what we do within that freedom that empowers us. Perhaps if you release “it will be hard”…(because if you think it, it will be hard) and try: “it will be fun to experiment with this new idea”, which at least opens the door for a wonderful experience..
          And, no advice, just reflections of “my way” in case you would like to try something different:)

  2. Thank you for sharing your letter. I plan to make time to write one soon. It’s inspiring. A love letter from a wise mentor. I’m deepening my ability to receive, both from others and myself. Your letter is a stunning model of giving to myself thru words. I especially adore how well the crone knows the current you and gently opens her heart to receive.

    My favorite part:
    “Ah, you are absolutely beautiful. I don’t know why you cannot see that (I know you do not “like labels”, but labels are what we have, love)–as you spend hours in nature, in the hills and the ocean and the beach that you love so–you are all that you see, all that your heart holds dear, that is you reflecting to you. You are the vastness of the sky, and the power and grace of the ocean, and the majesty of the hills.”

    I’m glad to be on the journey with you, Joy.

    • Hi Lisa,
      The crone knows me because I live fully present in this moment. I am in this moment fully me. Such freedom in that!
      You reflect such a significant point: our willingness to receive, and not only from others but to self. Learning to be present to my self and honor that commitment to my self, has allowed me to be most fully present and honor that commitment to others (and to world). Which is where the freedom stems. Knowing there isn’t a “mistake” or a “failure” there is only this: open or not open (and really those are just labels for am I, or am I not?).
      Thank you for your kind words. Listening to your music list last week really enriched my life…reminded me of so much about my self..the sensual side, the play ful side, the strong/fit/beauty filled side…so awesome to allow these to surface and incorporate them into my truth a I create:)

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